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let myself get excited. and i always get let down. this weekend was amazing tho i must say. i dont know what to think any more.
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me and you day...
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[20 Apr 2006|10:58pm] |
emery
walls
Are you listening?
We write a thousand pages, they're torn and on the floor
Headlights hammer the windows, we're locked behind these doors
And we are never leaving, this place is part of us
And all these scenes repeating are cold to the touch
My hands seem to deceive me
When I'm nervous or when I'm healthy
The scenery's all drawn...
They hang here from the walls dear,
Painting pictures, bleeding colors,
blank out the windows...
Sometimes it gets so hard to breathe.
Your eyes see right through me.
These fights with your arms left beside.
One thing and one more says goodnight.
You've got the map come get to me.
These knuckles break before they bleed.
Tear out these veins that own my heart.
This skin that wears your lasting marks.
I've built these walls come get to me, come get to me.
Is this your lesson, a slight discretion,
The lines that keep you, the lines that sweep you.
Lock the doors from the inside...
Your face is so contagious, it wears announcements,
It leaves me breathless, I won't forget this. I won't forget.
Sometimes it gets so hard to breathe.
Your eyes see right through me.
Let the walls have their say.
Let the walls have their say.
Let the walls have their say.
Have their say.
There's no conversation, words without remorse
And this television drowns the only source
Wake from these dreams of you in my arms
To the staircase where you hold your heart
This place, these walls mean everything to me.
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[02 Nov 2005|11:53pm] |
LIFE IS GOOD! lol no it isn't! but ohhhh well call me if you care and comment on my myspace
www.myspace.com/made4james23
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wow life is Rough and Fun all at the same time i never stop going i work 7 days a week and i have school 5 days a week and i miss school alot and everyone wonders why and then i think and its just like wow when was the last time i stopped to breathe and its like ohh wait i havent stopped EVER next week end i get to actually go relax go to my simple plan concert then sunday i have the harvest party at Church and that should be exciting to run a game with AJ, and then i talked to Chris Johns tonight and its so weird we were best friends before me and Jason and now we dont even talk and its like so hard for me to think that that is just one more thing in my life that i allowed Jason to Ruin and im done im never going to let a guy rule my life like that again, wow more tomorrow , okays love you byes .
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[04 Oct 2005|08:34pm] |
my daily horoscope says : It's a bummer when you and a friend or a sibling fight, but it doesn't mean that everything's over -- far from it. It's normal to have the occasional tiff with people you're close to. This will blow over.
My Romantic Horoscope today says: Your most recent affair, that relationship that could've been (maybe your high school sweetheart) -- it's all very easy to romanticize, but none of it is happening now. Cherish the memories, but get your heart in the present.
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[30 Sep 2005|09:28pm] |
there is a girl and after being with a guy for almost two whole years, this guy, although nearly perfect breaks up with her. They stay together for like two months and then on and off for several months. Through those months this guy gets a new girlfriend and the girl goes through a few guys but neither one of them ever get anything serious. The Boy still has a girlfriend but doesnt let that stop him from telling the first girl that he still loves her and that they are going to be together again someday. The Girl feels the same way about the boy and has been wondering all the while "If he loves me why isnt he with me ". So on the most recent of their secret meetings, the girl finally gets the nerve to ask the guy that she loves why they arent together. I mean if she loves him and he loves her whats the problem right? .... On the contrary the boy responds with a simple " Yes, I love you, Yes I want to be with you, no I dont love her , but we , you and I , live different lives, we always have and thats what I hated about our relationship " The girl fell to tears and the boy then proceded to tell her that everything would be okay and kisses and hugs her goodbye, and leaves. Where was he off too? to meet his Girlfriend.........................................
and now for my favorite song ....
" Welcome To My Life "
Simple Plan
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
And no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me...
***To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life***
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside your bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me...
******
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
******
******
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[26 Sep 2005|11:51pm] |
i just want to say that i am VERY lost in my life right now and i just want to say thank you to the only 3 people in my life that have been there for me through it
Alissa- Thank you for always being there i mean from day one With Rob to 2 years with Jason and to my brother and sister being born and my failure of a step father thank you for all of that and more importantly thank you for being there for me when i needed you most. becuase the hard part wasnt being there for me durring mine and jason's relationship it was the aftermath of it all after Hurricane Jason came in and tore me to shreads.i just want you to know although i may not get to tell you very often and it may not get said too frequently, thank you and i love you tons. Don't change!....P.S. I am soo 15 days more Harrison Ford.lol.
Christine- You have definatly been there for me from the get go and you always listen to what i have to say and rambling on and on about the things that may erally be insignificant to you but important to me and you have always been a wonderful friend. you are one of my best friends and i dont want that to change, i can only hope that i am there for you as much as you are for me thank you Christine !! I LOVE YOU!!!!
Michelle- My new found friend. I am soo happy that we started talking this year and i think this is going to become a wonderful friendship that was really cheesy but oh well. i'm really glad that you and i have become friends because you are one of the most amazing people i have ever met you are so real and i like that about you because your not afraid of what people think of you and you have also chosen to " accept me for who i am " and that means alot to me because not many people can and it just makes me happy to know there are still good people out there. I Love You.
okay, soo to the three of you tnak you and I LOVE YOU if i didn't already make that clear ...
xcrossposted: My space
XX Amanda Joy
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[26 Sep 2005|11:45pm] |
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When it's over
That's the time I fall in love again
And when it's over
That's the time you're in my heart again
And when you go go go go
I know
And it never ends
It never ends
<>
All the things that I used to say
All the words that got in the way
All the things that I used to know
Have gone out the window
All the things that she used to bring
All the songs she used to sing
All the favorite TV shows
Have gone out the window
I'm missing you
I never knew how much she'd loved me
I'm missing you
I never knew how much you meant to me
I need you and when you go go go go
I know
It never ends
Never ends
<>
All the things that I used to say
All the words that got in the way
All the things that I used to know
Have gone out the window
All the things that she used to bring
All the songs she used to sing
All the favorite TV shows
Have gone out the window
I'm wishing you
You never said you were pretending
I'm wishing you
You feel the same and just come back to me
I need you and when you go go go go
I know
It never ends/It never ends
When it's over
Can I still come over
And when it's over
Is it really over
When it's over
That's the time I fall in love again
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All the things that I used to say
All the words that got in the way
All the things that I used to know
Have gone out the window
All the things that she used to bring
All the songs she used to sing
All the favorite TV shows
Have gone out the window
All the things that I used to say
All the words that got in the way
All the things that I used to know
Have gone out the window
All the things that she used to bring
All the songs she used to sing
All the favorite TV shows
Have gone out the window
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[15 Sep 2005|12:01pm] |
wow, words cant describe how i feel inside........
so everything is perfect and i'm happy then one surprise vist makes me even happier and then it all hits me that i wasn't happy until that surprise visit and the problem is that i don't think that i should be happy about that visitor i mean hes been so wishy washy and i have stability else where but then again i always have gone for the jerks. why is it that everytime i think i can be over him he shows back up in my life it woulldnt be such a big deal except its been soo long since i had to think about it and then i see him and all my thoughts come running back into my head its just rediculous i want to like have a day to myself to process whats going on in my life. without anyone influencing my thoughts or decisions. not that there are any decisions to be made. i have made a decision. strike three has come and passed maybe there can be another game some time in the future but for now the game is over. it just sucks to look back at the highlights of the game and see exactly where you went wrong. i guess that i will have to just keep thinking about it so that next time i wont make the same mistakes... and hopefully neither will he..................................................................
sorry thinking out loud......
x Amanda Joy x xoxo
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| QUOTE OF THE WEEK!!!!@ |
[23 Aug 2005|02:24am] |
okay this is how i feel!!!!!!
" I want to draw something that means something to someone. Like when you go see a really great band live for the first time and no one is saying it but everyone's thinking it... I want to draw that feeling, but I can't." - Peyton Sawyer (Hilarie Burton)
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75 questions Repost this but tell the truth
What have YOU done... BE TRUTHFUL!!!
1. smoked a cigarette - yes
2. smoked a cigar - yes
3. made out with a member of the same sex - yes
4. crashed a friend's car - no
5. stolen a car - no
6. been in love - yes
7. been dumped -yes
8. done a shot? - yes
9. been fired - yes twice from the same place
10. been in a fist fight – yeah
11. snuck out of your house – no
12. had feelings for someone who didnt have them back -yes
13. been arrested - no
14. made out with a stranger- yes
15. gone on a blind date – yes
16. lied to a friend - yes
17. had a crush on a teacher – not even close
18. skipped school- no
19. slept with a co-worker - yes i met my ex of 2 years because we worked to gether and yea
20. seen someone die - no
21. been on a plane - yes
22. thrown up in a bar - no
23. taken painkillers - yes
24. miss someone right now - yes
25. laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by - yeah
26. made a snow angel - yeah
27. played dress up - yea
28. cheated while playing a game - yes
29. been lonely - yes
30. fallen asleep at work/school – yes
31. used a fake id - no
32. felt an earthquake - no
33. touched a snake - yes
34. ran a red light - yes
35. been suspended from school- no
36. had detention -every day of eighth grade
37. been in a car accident - yes
38. hated the way you look- YES
39. witnessed a crime - yeah
40. pole danced - yes in my bnasement if that counts
41. been lost - yea in the airport
42. been to the opposite side of the country - no i wish
43. felt like dying - yes
44. cried yourself to sleep - yes
45. played cops and robbers - yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
46. karaoke - yeah who hasnt
47. done something you told yourself you wouldn't - yup
48. laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose- yes
49. caught a snowflake on your tongue -yup
50. kissed in the rain - yes
51. sing in the shower - yup
52. made love in a park -if the beach counts
53. had a dream that you married someone - yes
54. glued your hand to something- yea
55. got your tongue stuck to a flag pole- no
56. worn the opposite sex's clothes - yea
57. been a cheerleader- not a chance
58. sat on a roof top - yeah
59. didn't take a shower for a week - nope
60. ever too scared to watch scary movies alone - at some point im sure i was
61. played chicken – yup
62. been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on - yes t
63. been told you're hot by a complete stranger - yup
64. broken a bone - no
65. been easily amused - yea
66. laugh so hard you cry -yea
67. mooned/flashed someone - yup
68. cheated on a test - yeah
69. forgotten someone's name - yeah
70. slept naked - yes ...whos asking?
71. gone skinny dipping in a pool - yup
72. been kicked out of your house - nope
73. blacked out from drinking - too manty times
74. played a prank on someone - yeah
75. played strip poker- yeah struip black jack motha fuckas lol
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| class 2005-2006 school year |
[12 Aug 2005|07:50pm] |
I'M A FUCKING SENIOR!!!! sorry it just finally hit me this is it!!!!!
My classes
1st Semester
Math-Lambert
Cont. Novel-Rabaut
Ceramics1-Webber
Earth Sci AA- Sharpe
Photography-Birkenheir
Sociology-Laing
2nd Semester
Math-Lambert
Photography2-Birkenheir
Practical Law-Yakel
Earth Sci BB-Sharpe
College Reading-Pinho
Pers Weights-Guntzviller
comment if you have any or even if you dont !! !
Class of 2006!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hells yeah! where you at ?
peace up, A -Town Down
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[30 Jul 2005|01:33pm] |
Warped Tour Tomorrow and then ..... i can eat ICE CREAM I can not wait .....
okay ...Backstreet Boys wednesday.... so whos excited ???? ME
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okay well this is how the night went over okay... so i went to Chris's house(leah's bf) and then i went home and back and home and back and then i stop at 6 lakes and Jakes there and i hear him talking about getting in a fight so i take leah back to Chris's and then i go to this Fight with Jake well come to find out the whole reason this fight is even happening is because last nightsome kid named nolan was talking shit to ME well then Nolan and Jake start fighting and then Jakes friends and Brother and I watch this all happen then all of a sudden the kid backs up and goes "White Lake Police are on there way" not 2 seconds later 5-0 every where !!! well then more or less we all got frisked and then we all went home alissa called me mid frisk and i went to answer and the police officer was like put that phone down. iwas like ahh and i threw it down !! so yea the cops knew 95.9% of the kids we were with by name.... it was fun or not either way!
k byes
I LOVE JAKE DEVORE!
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[11 Jul 2005|01:46pm] |
Aliss if you read this call me i need your expert opinion !!! i love you xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
oh and Enjoy NC
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